I guess I should start where I finished off last time. It’s just that a few days have passed since then and a lot has happened but I’ll try and remember things as best as I can. After dealing with the woman we were given the job of exploring an old ruin to see what we could find, with the manager having a particular interest in old coins. Long story short we found one but it belonged to a small but really rude dragon along with a chest filled with gold and jewels. Dealing with him was long and complicated but we said that we’d take him to see the manager but t the issue was that we didn’t have a way of contacting the airship to pick us up so we had to carry the dragon and chest of gold to them eventually stopping to rest for the night. All things considered it was probably the best part of the whole field trip since we were visited by the nicest man I’ve ever met. He came into our tent and gave me a great suit of enchanted armour, I was so shocked that I wasn’t sure what to say really. As I thanked him though Viscardi suddenly attacked him, shouting that he was some kind of monster. I found him afterwards and apologised for how Viscardi reacted but he didn’t seem to mind too much. I guess he was used to worse living in such a creepy looking forest all the time.
Anyway, we eventually got back to the bank and showed the dragon to the manager… who immediately squashed him with a hammer and I swear even Achlys looked shocked. Afterwards we got a job from the druids to try and find the goblins that keep attacking them and found out that they kept as close to fresh water sources as possible. It took a while but eventually we found a village of them protected by some kind of illusion to make them invisible. We met with their leader who showed each of us a vision. Viscardi and Achlys seemed to take it alright but I was sick right after and I’m not even sure what I even saw. The goblins wanted to take out the bank as well so they asked us to help them with that. We managed to get three of the managers to come and meet with the goblins, saying that they wanted to trade their machines. The bank must have known that something was up because they also brought a bunch of zombies and burly bodyguards with them. In the end though they didn’t do much after the goblin leader drowned them in her magic water pool and we took care of the managers. When they were dealt with we took the airship and headed back to deal with the last two managers, though this time we had help from Big Boom, a goblin who carried a massive cannon that could shoot spells who turned out to be invaluable and the second best person we met in that world. The fourth manager turned out to be a lot stronger than the other three and when I say that I mean that he hit like a brick. Still, he had a really nice belt which fits me fine and has made me a lot more nimble so I guess it was worth it. The last manager was a surprise though, or at least he was to me. I don’t know why but it looked like Viscardi could almost recognise him. It turned out that he was responsible for making the zombies that accompanied the other managers. Fighting him turned out to be a real challenge, at some point he must have cast some kind of weird spell that left me feeling… odd or dreary, things just weren’t as clear as they should have been. Nevertheless we took him out too and made our way to the head of the bank at the very top of the tower. It turns out that it was some kind of outsider that whose rebirth depends on the life it previously led. At first he didn’t seem so dangerous and we got in a good hit or two. And then hue grabbed hold of Ryan and his arm started to grow. I tried to pull as hard as I could but he was completely engulfed and if it wasn’t for Big Boom he may have gotten me too and it ended when the CEO was pushed through a window and fell to the ground. Eriis and Viscardi slid down the stairs after him while Achlys and I searched his office to no avail. When they came back up saying that he was dead and there was no sign of Ryan it felt like something snapped. I don’t know if it was that spell the 5th manager cast or what but I lost control and started smashing up the office with Viscardi’s mace. I wasn’t really sure what was going on but all I remember was being really angry it was terrifying. Normally i’m good at staying composed but I couldn’t stop myself, just the thought of losing a new friend because of my actions it makes me sick to my stomach. If I had never accepted his services in the first place he wouldn’t be dead now and even when his life was in danger there was nothing I could do to stop it. What good am I if I can’t even protect the people I care about?
It’s been two days since then. Mrs Arael came to collect us the next day but most of us weren’t quite ready to go with Eriis wanting to check out the deeper part of the forest and Viscardi wanting to see the elves of the region. Personally I wasn’t ready to go either, knowing that I’d have to head home afterwards and no don’t mum and dad would be there to ask about the whole trip. Whatever spell the manager had cast had worn off by then but I still felt so frustrated and angry I felt like I had to hit something. Unfortunately Mrs Arael kept us out of any ruins that looked too dangerous and soon enough we were back in school. As expected we were asked to head home and mum and dad were right there to ask how it all went. I don’t think I have it in me to tell them about it even now so I went to my room, saying that I would tell them about it later. This morning though Viscardi came over and asked if I wanted to go with him to another girl’s birthday party. By this point I hadn’t even left my room since yesterday and I wasn’t sure if I should even go. Still, I though it would be rude if I said no so I got changed and went with him to the market to get the girl a present. I was surprised though that Achlys didn’t join us, I guess he isn’t too big on massive parties. I did learn though that we’ll have a new boy joining us next week. Silus, or at least I think that’s how to spell his name, seemed a bit strange at first. When we were all introducing each other it was like he was staring past or through us at something that even we couldn’t see. Still, he looks really smart so he should be fun to have around. We also got around to playing a game which took a turn for the worse, as the girl brought out a magic box that asked us questions. If we told the truth nothing would happen but when people lied bad things happened. We learned that Viscardi sent his brother to hell, and that Eriis was the one playing pranks on Averandus but the last question took most of us by surprise when it asked us who we had a crush on. It was so embarrassing to say it even if it was because he was there but I admitted that I had a crush on Averandus. It looks like he has his eye on someone else though so there goes that idea I suppose. It turned out though that someone lied and the box transformed into a monster and we had to fight it… or rather everyone else had to fight it because I don’t have a weapon after it happened. Again I couldn’t do a thing to stop people I care about from getting hurt and all because of my stupid decisions. Do I even deserve to be enrolled in Kalaeny’s school? Everyone else is exceptional at what they do while I keep messing up the one thing I try to do. I keep getting people hurt or killed when I should be the one defending and helping them. If i can’t do that, if I can’t be like mum and dad then what’s the point of carrying on?